Things to do from now till 1st March

1. Go get my job
2. Get lasik
3. Get more bartending skills
4. Clock a few dives
5. Go for physiotherapy

Life so far

I feel there's nothing wrong with the way I live, it is just the situation that I'm in that makes things difficult.

The leg problem is something I cannot gripe about anymore, I need to accept my fate and live with the pain without thinking of it as a burden.

The fat must be dealt with, equipment must be bought.

Knowledge? What knowledge do I seek now, language, world politics, world affairs, money.

Everything else will come with time. The most important is to enjoy life and not force things to happen.

Indo trip

Notes to self:

Had enough of trips overseas with parents. Mum can be real pain in ass.

Need to find girl who will not always fight me on things.

I'm SOOOOO IRRITATED. I hate hate hate having to rely on my parents for money, there has to be a way for me to make some money.

So first main point: Make money so don't have to ask parents for money because they are irritating.

Next main point, QUESTION EVERYTHING. Just coz some person says someone is good doesn't mean he's good. Make an informed decision.

Scuba diving, SDI = good. PADI = Great. And should have met the dive instructer before picking him, the guy doesn't seem like such a big deal.

Guitar. Martin? Go with Eugel, Eugel is a good guy, Zul is a fat smoker.

So what is life now?

Family is the same except for the fact that father is stressed.

How about me?

At this juncture I think I might have lost quite a few friends in the focus of becoming who I want to become.

I have also taken some risky moves to learn certain things about myself.

As well as learn what I'd like in others.

So what am I left with? A church full of half friends, the barker guys, my family, my dreams, my ambitions.

What did I learn from my mistakes?
- Don't go out to do things that you instinctively know are not going to end well.

- Don't try and solve other people's problems unless they're looking for help ( you know this so stop making this same mistake).

Amazing lethargy

I feel really really shitty today.

For a number of reasons:

1. Spent disgusting amounts of money on stupid things

2. Irene issues, trip up, her problems, stuff, ugh.

3. Leg problems

4. Scratched car

5. Damaged glasses

6. Got face smashed, injury

7. Realised at the end of the day, life is really hard, and doing it alone is impossible...

- Tomorrrow I start following Mr James Liu around, hopefully I learn something useful, might be good to think about what I want to talk to him about tomorrow.

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Stupid computer.

The damn thing crashed again.

AGAIN!

So annoying. I hope the shop can fix it once and for all, the drivers are all messed up. Sigh I really hope it works again, I don't think my parents will get me a new one.

It's damn hot today and I still have 3 days to sit around without a proper computer...

It's gonna be a longgggggggggggg week.